A Quick Overview before the bashing and history.

First of all this is not a poor me i got my heartbroken blog. No.. its a listen to how awesome and shitty this lovely Lesbian relationship was and kind of still is.. For instance today we had a nice lunch after not seeing her in 3 weeks.>. She threw us away because she needs more experiences. Experiences as in she wants to sleep with a man( or men) and experience dating more women. SHES fucking 34... Shes dated more women then me and I'm convinced she only wants to sleep with a man because shes wants porn style sex. Guess me strapping it on just didn't cut it... Anyways back to lunch today. We still love each other insanely. Everything about us is amazing, well was amazing... We broke up twice.. both my doing.. One time in June because we were just failing to reconnect after I was away for three months in Pennsylvania. Basically she wasn't putting out and was very distant. I think it was because of her craving for a man and maybe she got close to another girl( didn't cheat) while I was away. Anyways i went and broke up with her one night and they next day it was too much we both knew it wasn't time to end because we had something "special"  We didn't know what we were at that time and i kinda sorta got kissed AKA attacked by a girl 2 days later and I realized I def didn't want to break up because shes kinda the top of the line in every way... And she made me a better person.. So cut to 4th of JULY.. Sex life had become dull again. I was beyond frustrated and we had to go to this bbq at her friends.. Her friends who I could never ever connect with.. I got so shitfaced so shitfaced that I made a complete fool out of myself. And ended up violently puking the second I got out of the car that night.. She took care of me but i was so drunk i kinda treated her like shit. Woke up on the couch the next morning and just felt like shit.. We were suppose to go to Palm Springs .. well we did just got a late start and the car ride was very difficult for me I was so hung over..And super embarrassed. But we got to stop at chik-fil-a.. they are very far and few between in this part of California. I got chicken strips but couldn't eat them because i was too sick... YES this is relevant.. Don't give up on me yet.. So we make it palm springs unable to get into the room yet so we go straight to the pool and I order us drinks. HAIR of the Dog for me... I instantly feel better. After being there for a bit and halfway through my second drink i remember the chicken strips in bad.. cold but oh so delicious and I saved my Polynesian Sauce.  Shes off somewhere and I tell her how good it was to have saved my chicken strips.  She asks if I have any left I rip her off a piece and she wouldn't take it because i used my hands. I don't know if she has always been like that but after what she swears was the swine flu i swear she had a bad cold she wouldn't take things from my hands.. Something i dealt with but kinda annoyed me. So I'm like too bad and scarfed it down. I finished my drink and headed into the water and when I looked up at her she was rummaging through my bag eating my last chicken strip.. I don't really like sharing my food especially if its crazy delicious... I get out and kinda yell at her because her ass had eaten already and she stole my last one......THIS IS WHAT kicked off the BREAKUP..... I will finish the rest in a day or so because that may have lost your attention a bit and you yourself may need a break from me.. But stick with me.. I have lots to say and need any help you can give to get over this girl.